Post by Seraphim on Apr 13, 2005 0:20:01 GMT -5
I have recently decided that I will live every moment of my life for God and by faith and I have given over every bit of my life to God's hands understanding that for the rest of my life satan is going to be pestering me and trying me. Its been a week and if satan was a physical being I would have knocked him out.
It started with little things. Each time I'm attacked it gets a little worse and a little worse. I understood that this was going to happen but now satan is using my family to try to break me down and I cannot sit back and let him do that.
If you've never prayed before I don't care, if you don't think you're on good terms with God, I don't care but please say a little prayer for me. I have always believed in the power of prayer and satan can try me all he wants, I am powerless to go against the decision I have made to follow God completely, but please pray that God will watch over my family and loved ones.
Today sucked because at lunch I saw my beloved Dane with his new girlfriend and I realized that he never really cared. I feel sorry for the girl really, there's only one way their relationship is going to end, and that is badly. That was bad, but I got over it, it took all night but just as I had recovered I came home from youth and talked to my mother, I believe she's been drinking for the second time in 20 years. All my christian CD's are missing aswell as my stereo, they weren't stolen but I really wanted to listen to some uplifting music after realizing my mother is drunk and it wasn't there.
I am so tired.
It started with little things. Each time I'm attacked it gets a little worse and a little worse. I understood that this was going to happen but now satan is using my family to try to break me down and I cannot sit back and let him do that.
If you've never prayed before I don't care, if you don't think you're on good terms with God, I don't care but please say a little prayer for me. I have always believed in the power of prayer and satan can try me all he wants, I am powerless to go against the decision I have made to follow God completely, but please pray that God will watch over my family and loved ones.
Today sucked because at lunch I saw my beloved Dane with his new girlfriend and I realized that he never really cared. I feel sorry for the girl really, there's only one way their relationship is going to end, and that is badly. That was bad, but I got over it, it took all night but just as I had recovered I came home from youth and talked to my mother, I believe she's been drinking for the second time in 20 years. All my christian CD's are missing aswell as my stereo, they weren't stolen but I really wanted to listen to some uplifting music after realizing my mother is drunk and it wasn't there.
I am so tired.