Post by The Weak's End on Feb 24, 2005 19:47:47 GMT -5
The following is the most meaningful thing I'll ever post, so I hope you guys listen....
My life has always been a battle, every morning its a struggle for me to get up and go through each day, its also a struggle to fall asleep at the end of every day...I guess what Im trying to say is...life isnt easy for me...
This isnt a cry for help, or a sign of suicide...its merely a very big statement that I feel I need to make...so here it goes...I'll start from what I feel is the beginning
One hot summer day, I came inside from a game of street basket-ball(no rules)...and I decided to get on the computer...I had no new e-mails(which was alot of times then)...and there was nothing to do...so I decided to get into some trouble...I joined the official avril board as an anti avril...and boy, was I hated around there...but it was what led me to meeting a few amazing people...at first, I met succ, she was well known for voiceing her opinion in the loudest ways...often replying to annyoing posts with names like "avril I luv u"...but since it seemed we were never on at the same time...we didnt talk much...then I met a girl named sarah, she was going through similar problems at home...and we helped each other through some really tough times...that was my first glimpse of hope...
there was only one problem with this, I was still cutting myself on a regular basis...Enter Succ...somehow I ended up here, on her board...and she helped me ALOT, she knew me while I was still a christian, got me to believe again at one point...and basicly saved me from myself...
The point of this thread is to thank each and every person that has ever helped me....even if they wont ever read it...I just feel like I should thank them...I love all of you, and I'll never forget the things you've done for me....
Shylox - you have helped me get through some of the worst things ever...when I felt like killing myself, you gave me a reason not to...one single promise to you changed my life.......I could be in the worst mood ever, and you'd make everything better...I've told you things I would never tell anyone else in a million years...and you've also taken my band to new levels...we have fans in other countries thanks to you...if it wasnt for you, we'd still have nothing....thank you soo much for everything, I love ya....
Succ - You, at one time, were my only hope...you knew me as a christain, when i lost my faith, when I got it back, and when I gave it up again...but one thing you never did...was give up on me...and that, I am so grateful for...because I dont think Id be writing this if you hadnt gotten me back on track...and you did it more than once too....Thank so much!!...you saved me from myself...
Matt - hes standing here reading this right now, but Im gonna wright it all out anyway....hes about the sweetest guy Ive ever met...You can get lost in the deep grey/blue color of his eyes....out of all the guys I've dated...I know I love him...no one else ever made me feel like this....and hes everything in the world to me...If I ever lose him like I thought I might of a while ago...i dont know what I would do....so thats why Im thankful to have him as my boyfriend...
ALL of the Yellowcard underdogs(its the e-team) - I know none of you except maybe germ will ever read this, but I wanna do it anyway....all of you kept me in a good mood while I was in a struggle to be happy....its a shame they shut that site down until summer....
I think thats all I wanna type out right now.....I know that I left a bunch of people out....but you know who you are...and I thank all of you....I wish I could make it up to you somehow.....
much love always,
-Jen
My life has always been a battle, every morning its a struggle for me to get up and go through each day, its also a struggle to fall asleep at the end of every day...I guess what Im trying to say is...life isnt easy for me...
This isnt a cry for help, or a sign of suicide...its merely a very big statement that I feel I need to make...so here it goes...I'll start from what I feel is the beginning
One hot summer day, I came inside from a game of street basket-ball(no rules)...and I decided to get on the computer...I had no new e-mails(which was alot of times then)...and there was nothing to do...so I decided to get into some trouble...I joined the official avril board as an anti avril...and boy, was I hated around there...but it was what led me to meeting a few amazing people...at first, I met succ, she was well known for voiceing her opinion in the loudest ways...often replying to annyoing posts with names like "avril I luv u"...but since it seemed we were never on at the same time...we didnt talk much...then I met a girl named sarah, she was going through similar problems at home...and we helped each other through some really tough times...that was my first glimpse of hope...
there was only one problem with this, I was still cutting myself on a regular basis...Enter Succ...somehow I ended up here, on her board...and she helped me ALOT, she knew me while I was still a christian, got me to believe again at one point...and basicly saved me from myself...
The point of this thread is to thank each and every person that has ever helped me....even if they wont ever read it...I just feel like I should thank them...I love all of you, and I'll never forget the things you've done for me....
Shylox - you have helped me get through some of the worst things ever...when I felt like killing myself, you gave me a reason not to...one single promise to you changed my life.......I could be in the worst mood ever, and you'd make everything better...I've told you things I would never tell anyone else in a million years...and you've also taken my band to new levels...we have fans in other countries thanks to you...if it wasnt for you, we'd still have nothing....thank you soo much for everything, I love ya....
Succ - You, at one time, were my only hope...you knew me as a christain, when i lost my faith, when I got it back, and when I gave it up again...but one thing you never did...was give up on me...and that, I am so grateful for...because I dont think Id be writing this if you hadnt gotten me back on track...and you did it more than once too....Thank so much!!...you saved me from myself...
Matt - hes standing here reading this right now, but Im gonna wright it all out anyway....hes about the sweetest guy Ive ever met...You can get lost in the deep grey/blue color of his eyes....out of all the guys I've dated...I know I love him...no one else ever made me feel like this....and hes everything in the world to me...If I ever lose him like I thought I might of a while ago...i dont know what I would do....so thats why Im thankful to have him as my boyfriend...
ALL of the Yellowcard underdogs(its the e-team) - I know none of you except maybe germ will ever read this, but I wanna do it anyway....all of you kept me in a good mood while I was in a struggle to be happy....its a shame they shut that site down until summer....
I think thats all I wanna type out right now.....I know that I left a bunch of people out....but you know who you are...and I thank all of you....I wish I could make it up to you somehow.....
much love always,
-Jen
I know...Thats one of the few things I can be sure about in this life....one of those things I know wont change up on me... 
we both rock..
