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May 4, 2005 0:14:41 GMT -5
Post by Seraphim on May 4, 2005 0:14:41 GMT -5
That isn't going to help you. It can only make things worse. You can do it the hard way or the easier way...take your pick.
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May 4, 2005 5:23:01 GMT -5
Post by The Weak's End on May 4, 2005 5:23:01 GMT -5
do you honestly think I chose to be like this?...cuz if you do your dead wrong....I hate my life...I hate myself for being the way I am....for doing things I know are wrong for temporary relief because nothing else ever helps....
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May 4, 2005 19:44:05 GMT -5
Post by Seraphim on May 4, 2005 19:44:05 GMT -5
God can give you the strength, you have to have the desire to get those things out of your life.
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May 5, 2005 5:20:12 GMT -5
Post by The Weak's End on May 5, 2005 5:20:12 GMT -5
They WERE out of my life ok!!...the thing is THEY ALWAYS COME BACK!!...I dont even fucking care anymore...
I hope I just like roll over and die or something...
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May 5, 2005 13:09:47 GMT -5
Post by The Awesome One on May 5, 2005 13:09:47 GMT -5
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May 5, 2005 18:06:25 GMT -5
Post by The Weak's End on May 5, 2005 18:06:25 GMT -5
see succ??....everytime I gain some...I fall even harder than the last time.....
I know this is effecting her just as much as me....but for some reason...Im having alot of trouble...and I cant seem to stand back up...
I've got something holding me down, and I have no clue what it is....
fuck it, I give up...nothings ever gonna help, nothings ever getting better....youd think by now Id just quit trying...but Im not ok with failing......until now....
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May 6, 2005 10:42:54 GMT -5
Post by Seraphim on May 6, 2005 10:42:54 GMT -5
Hey, you get your tired, exastued self back on your feet, now! You are not going to just lay down and die on me.
If you want to know what it is, ask God.
James 1:5-6 "5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he whou doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind."
Once you know what it is, you can pray specifically for God to give you strength and support.
You can get through this, but you have to keep at it. Don't quit, don't give up. Thats what satan wants you to do, thats exactly what he's trying to make you do. Get up and live.
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May 6, 2005 14:02:34 GMT -5
Post by The Weak's End on May 6, 2005 14:02:34 GMT -5
succ, theres no point...there just isnt...
because even if I do get back on track...Im just gonna fall again...
I give up...
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May 6, 2005 22:29:52 GMT -5
Post by Seraphim on May 6, 2005 22:29:52 GMT -5
I'm not going to let you.
Get up.
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May 7, 2005 13:40:52 GMT -5
Post by The Weak's End on May 7, 2005 13:40:52 GMT -5
No succ, no...I give up because I know things will always be this way...and everytime I fall I just fall harder...
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May 7, 2005 22:42:24 GMT -5
Post by Seraphim on May 7, 2005 22:42:24 GMT -5
Jen, it sucks, but no one ever said it was going to be easy. Sometimes I don't find like that easy, but I know I'll get through it. Its been months going on a year now, but I still know I'll get through it. Don't get discouraged. Getting discouraged just stopped your forward progress. Sometimes when you go through a long tunnel it doesn't feel like you're getting anywhere, but you are. And every step you take makes you stronger. If you give up and sit down you're doomed to be there forever.
Get up.
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May 8, 2005 7:30:08 GMT -5
Post by Lord MIW on May 8, 2005 7:30:08 GMT -5
I'm not gonna fob you off with this one. I know that your life is hard, and I know that you only see one real path. But let's think this through. If you can escape so easily through death, numb the pain by cutting yourself, then how is it so hard to escape through life?
Why is it impossible to change something in your life? If it's parents, move out. Get into a foster home till you're old enough to leave. Friends? Get rid of them. Situations? Move on from them. It's never impossible, you're just not looking at all the options.
You want help. Deep down you don't really want to do it. That's why you've even made this topic; why you keep replying. If you were deadly serious then you wouldn't tell anyone - you'd be dead right now. So you still have something there to hold onto - you just need to find it.
Instead of focussing on the negatives, look for positive things. You have mates who really care about you; who would be distraught if anything happened to you. Focus on that. Let out your anger and sadness and let them help you. Find something worth clinging on to.
Though I know you'll ignore this and I know you'll find every excuse to debate against it. But hey, the advice is there.
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May 8, 2005 10:35:53 GMT -5
Post by Seraphim on May 8, 2005 10:35:53 GMT -5
Jen doesn't ignore advice. She knows when something's right.
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May 8, 2005 13:56:44 GMT -5
Post by The Weak's End on May 8, 2005 13:56:44 GMT -5
Im not ignoring anything, succs right, I never ignore advice, and I know when somethings right...nor am I on the verge of suicide...I dont wanna kill myself, I just dont wanna get hurt...
where you got the idea that I was talking about blowing my brains out, I dont know...
and as for the cutting, well, its like an addiction...its hard for anyone to really understand....
I know what I have to do...I need to get up like succ said, ask Gof for help, and get back on track...but Im not going to do it...
and I have a reason, I know that if I fix this, the way I know how...Its going to happen again, and I'll fall even harder, because I've always fallen hard, and it gets worse everytime...I dont want to fall again...I cant fall again...
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May 8, 2005 14:06:02 GMT -5
Post by Lord MIW on May 8, 2005 14:06:02 GMT -5
;D Misread. I blame Sera.
And yeah, I know the cutting's an addicition; most people I've talked to do it and can't stop themselves, but feel guilty about it, like it's some dirty secret.
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